A Breath of Fresh Air

For the first time in a long time I can just breathe. I can be still and not fall captive to memories. I can lie down and not force myself to be occupied with anything. I can just be. I still have no idea what God has in store for me, and a few doors have been opened, all leading in different directions, but I'm okay with the unknown. Whatever it is, God is going to use me however he wants. I'm happy; in God, with life, with me. I'm not still punishing myself and I think that's a great feat on it own. Life is moving and so am I. Passion is surging through my veins again. I want so much more than I ever thought. I will do great things because I'll be doing them for His glory.

My cheeks are so red, and it's definitely not because of this sunburn. Instead of searching for joy, I'm having trouble containing it. It's like I'm breathing new air, fresh air, and it's intoxicating.